---

Several years ago, I had a relationship with a childhood friend who was married. I soon told him that I wouldn't last long in an affair.
After a year, I ended the relationship and met a man online. He told me that he was married but living separately from his wife.
After a few months, I realized that this was a lie.
I thought: “I could have stayed in the other relationship anyway.”
I wondered whether I should go back to the previous relationship and didn't know what decision to make.

During this time, I suddenly noticed that hemorrhoids were starting to form.
When I had made my decision, they suddenly started to bleed slightly.
I immediately looked at the chart and had to laugh.
If I was right, it was a female identity conflict ...
(When a woman doesn't know where she belongs?)
After a short time, everything had healed.
Kind regards Cäcilia

Note from Björn Eybl
Thank you Cäcilia for the nice report.
Yes, a classic identity conflict: not knowing where you belong. Not knowing what decision to make, what to do next. Not knowing which partner to join.
Biological sense: In nature, feces and urine serve to mark territory. The place of defecation defines the center of life/location of the individual. With more excrement, the location (or standpoint) can be better marked and the identity emphasized. Fecal marking is the “intensified form” of urine marking.
Repair/healing: Restoration of the anal mucosa. Itching, pain, swelling, bright blood = “hemorrhoids”.