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Both our lives (me and mom) were marked by constant friction and conflict. Until we finally spoke out. From then on, we enjoyed every moment together. Including the day my mom invited herself over for coffee. With some cake in her luggage. We had a really entertaining time, even more so when she put the playing cards on the table and we passed the time with them. When she looked at her watch at an advanced hour, she cringed and said: "What, half past five already? I have to go home and cook something."

I remember really regretting her decision at that moment. I would have liked her to stay. (A year ago, this thought would have been unimaginable). It was precisely at this moment that I came to a realization and the stone fell from my heart. "I don't want my mom to leave anymore. WOW"

The following night I woke up with severe pain in my left little toe. It was hot and swollen. Sleeping on this left side of my body was unthinkable. Thanks to the GH, I knew it was the healing phase and fell asleep again, now lying on my back.

In the morning, the pain spread over the entire outer edge of my left foot. Walking was almost impossible. I am right-handed and therefore knew that it had to be related to my mother and was a solution. So I thought about the content of the conflict.

What else can the foot do apart from walking, running and kicking?

"I always wanted to push my mom away, push her away, but I wasn't able to" was probably once a DHS, which yesterday experienced the opposite sensation with "I want my mom here" and thus went into resolution.
I was only able to walk in pain for most of the following day. After two days, the pain and swelling were gone. I was so happy with this solution after many years of struggle that I can't even put it into words.

My comment from the GH/NM perspective:

The PCL symptoms of the unknown primal conflict "not being able to push mother away" (SWE) showed up on the outer edge of the mother/child's foot because I wanted to push her away, but also in the toe joint because a movement was integrated in the conflict content. In the PCL phase, the mesodermal tissue is painfully built up with the help of bacteria. It is swollen and hot.
So I resolved a biological conflict that I didn't even know was there and when exactly it happened. But the fact that it hurt so intensely also showed me that it was a great solution. Because I couldn't imagine that the feeling for my mom could ever change again.